A new way to live a new Target to choose!

Assalamualaikum... :)

So long has it been since my last entry...
hehe I myself can't remember  when.

Anyway...
Jom explain about today's topic.

New way to live means by that I am living in a new era (well for me)..
I mean, hidup di University. Tak sangka aku akan masuk University. Paling kelakar aku join program Electronics. Yelah memamng lah lawak since dulu aku nak sangat masuk Mechatronics.

But, kehidupan aku dah Allah rancang macam tu.. takkan aku nak tolak kot.
Yes, rancangan aku bukan ke USM dan aku bukan nak program ni. Aku dah plan nak g U mana anda aku dah plan nak buat apa until I die. Sampai bab kerjaya pown aku dah plan tau! Jangan main2.. hahaha~~
At first yes, aku memberontak. Tak suka USM lah, tak suka Kawan lah, Tak suka macam2...(until now).

I take my time to like this place. To accept my fate. It turns out, I'm just stressing myself out..and I end up making myself fail. FAIL!!! It's not that I haven't failed before, but at least Before this, I failed with dignity. I at least TRY!! But now, I hope it's not too late for me to climb back up.

I am now accepting the fact that I am NOT a MEchatronic student and I need to find a new goal. I am a POSITIVE person ( so what people said about me... hehe ). Probably it's a little too late for first sem, but I know I can catch up for second sem and I want to raise back my pointer  for the best during my first year here in USM Engineering Campus.

okaaayy... ah lari dari topik sebenarnya. New life, let's see... sebenarnya aku nak cakap, dengan hidup yang baru ni, aku mula dapat matlamat yang baru. Walaupun masih samar2 at least ada lah nmpk jugak kan. (Daripada tak nampak! XD )

This is my update about myself.. I know nobody would take notice about this, well hey! This is my blog right?! So I can write anything I want here. hehe~~

Sorry to bore you guys with my story.

Wait for my  next update! :)

Assalamualaikum.
Peace be upon you. <3 p="">

Jodoh

Setiap perhubungan akan ada ujian

Perhubungan SAH , ujiannya menjadikan pasangan semakin di RAHMATI.

Perhubungan BUKAN suami isteri, DITAKUTI ujiannya MEMBINASAKAN DIRI...

TIADA percintaan antara lelaki dan perempuan,
MELAINKAN percintaan suami isteri.

....JODOH TELAH DITENTUKAN, HANYA PERLU PERBAIKI, SABAR, BERUSAHA CARI YANG BAIK....

Queens Bay...

Hello guys,

As promised, I want to tell you a story..
This happened yesterday.
I went to Queens Bay with two of my friend. Both are boys and I 'm the only girl..

We got lost, and depend on 2 GPS just to find they way yet still lost. hahaha
We got fined for not having a parkign ticket ( that damn signboard always hides behind trees.)

I got frustrated because almost ALL signboards in Penang hides BEHIND trees and this also the reason we always exited in the wrong way.

In Queens Bay (qb), standard lah kita berjalan bersama kan, takkan nak tinggalkan mereka. I was walking in the middle with the two guys walking beside me, right and left. The funny thing was, Almost all the couples there just stares at us. hahaha K I suddenly felt superior then.
We went to the cinema and watched The MAze Runner. very interesting movie. :) They based from a novel and as expected, there will be a next book.

I HAVE TO FIND THIS BOOK! THE WHOLE SERIES OF IT!!!

As a reader, I don't really support an out of a book movie, because it spoils our imagination about the whole story. I ccan't really tell you guys about how we felt if the story in the movie are very different than in the book... sad, devastated and probably angry (?).

THE MAZE RUNNER successfully caught my eye... but not to judge early, i have to read the original book. I hope the producer won't be a dissapointment like what happened to Harry Potter.

Hope it will be like THE HUNGER GAMES... :) Can't wait for THE MOCKINGJAY part 1 to come out.

After the movie, we went to Borders... I bought a new book... the fourth book of the Old Kingdom thrilling prequel!!!

Presenting to you, Clariel...



I was thinking about buying the Murakami book but I can't waste my time by not buying a Garth Nix. It will be such a waste then! I got like 3 series of Grath Nix book. One of them are the Old Kingdom prequel. :)

then we went back home and I can't think of anything else anymore to say..
Okay since Now I'm a University student, I have lots of thing to do... So good bye guys

See ya in my next post. :)

USM - Universiti Sains Malaysia

USM... Sebuah universiti yang aku sendiri tak percaya aku akan jejak kan kaki ku ini..

Sejak datang sini, aku pelajari macam2. Accepting the truth about life, accepting the unaccepted. I learn to be strong. I learn to be happy with anything. I learn to be smart in my way. I learn to be grateful. I learn to love time so much. I learn regrets are good. I learn to make new friends. I learn to love USM....

This all happened just in 3 weeks, and there's a lot more to learn. I am growing up and I have to accept that. Being very far away from my family...I do feel homesick sometimes, but come to think of it, I'm kinda lucky because I can still go home at least once every month if i want to.

USM engineering campus, has their own unique spesifics. Such as,

-the amount of flies there is. (haha) about this, From KMTPh, banyak nyamuk, skarang banyak plak lalat. Siapa yang tak biasa tu mmg kena tahan lah skit. BUkan sebab tempat ni kotor. Tapi sini kawasan dia kawasan kelapa sawit and disekeliling ni org kampung dia ternak ayam. Baja yang digunakan pown guna taik ayam rasa nya. sbb bau dia lain macam je. hehe.

- LOngkang yang tak macam longkang. :) Perkara ini ada betull.. nak kata longkang bukan, nak kata saliran pown bukan. Konsep USM kami, kelestarian alam. :) Dan kampus kejuruteraan ini dikenali juga dengan nama "Kampus terapung" // "Floating Campus".
[next time, I'll try to upload a picture about this drain-but-not-a-drain thingy]

- The food is cheap cheap cheap! n_n I don't know about anywhere else but compared to in Jengka, Pahang... This place is very cheap! (for me) I ate alot since I came here and gained some weight on my face. Hehe...

K, now... I joined PALAPES DARAT here. Rather crazy... and the most out of my mind was that I joined ADIKARMA.. You see, Adikarma is an art society mostly focuses on dancing and live band. :) I entered under the name of DAncing. haha wierd for a girl like me to join this kind of activity. :P

I have another story, but i think I'l post it in another post. Since this one is already long. Have fun guys!! X)

here's a promotional video of Adikarma..

Change

I used to think I have a personality disorder.
But it turns out that I was an attention seeker. I just want people to see me, to know me and when they said they do.. well...I denied them. I scolded them.
I used to think I was mysterious, and there's a saying, 'The more you think you're mysterious, the vulnerable you actually are'.
I used to think, I have this some kind of psychology problem, but it turns out that I'm just overly stressed and to teenagers...my emotions and a reactions were actually normal.
I used to think, people wants to get to me on purpose.
I used to think that I'm not worth being in love and being loved.
i used to think that I'm fat an not good looking enough to have someone to like me, as in 'like' me.
I used to think that having a friend was not good. They could stab my back.
I used to think girls are stupid and annoying. And somewhat scary. At some point I don't even want to admit I'm a girl!
I used to think, I am a bad luck charm. Always bring bad luck to everyone else around me.
I used to think I am a loner. No one wants to be friends with me.
I used to think I am an introvert and can't change who I am. And I feel that I need to accept me for who I am and deal with the world that way..

I used to think...
I was a VERY NEGATIVE person...
Which my aqquaintances always denied... They said I'm a very positive person and they wished to be like me...


I used to think, "They are lying, they just said that to make me feel better".

Yet,
I am the one who are wrong.
I can be positive.
I can have many friends, but only few can be my best friends.
I can be who I want.
I decide Who I'm gonna be and what I can do.
I DO NOT have mental problems.

I can change who I am now to WHAT I want to be.

I am Invincible!

I change from "I used to be.."---> "I can..."---> " I AM...!"

We Are Humans And Only Allah Can Judge Us!
Not Other Humans!

Versus by Hlovate.. Jom berubah?

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim.
Assalamualaikum and a very good evening ( malaysia time )

I have just finished reading this book. A friend of mine, lend this book which is I'm quite surprised too. I was expecting a different book.

Anyway,
After reading this book, I do recommend you guys to read it. My fellow muslims... after I read this book, I've realized something, something that makes me want to change.. All this time I've searching for the turning point and I can't believe because of this book's writing, I realize that changing is very hard and I always wants the easy way. How stupid am I?
Betapa jahil nya kita sbb nak kan sesuatu dengan mudah... Bila tidak dapat,kita jatuh. kecewa dengan serta merta.

Sahabat sekalian.. Aku bukanlah di tempat yang sesuai tuk beri nasihat agama kat korang.. But believe me, changing is hard.. tetapi aku akan cuba untuk sentiasa beri semangat untuk berubah. Untuk anda semua dan juga untuk diri saya sendiri..

Jangan sedih kalau kita jatuh ke lembah diri yang jahil dulu..
Klaau kecewa pown, tabah kan diri dan kembali kan lah diri kepada Allah..
InsyaAllah, kita sama2 ye. :)

Assalamualaikum sahabt2 sekalian..

Never

Climbing the stairs.. oh how hard it is..
climb climb and climb...
Till half way,
A wall gets in the way.
With this wall, what are you going to do about it?
You know the dreams you want is at the top,
yet the wall is in the way..
What will you do?
What will you do?
What will you do?

Some just sits there and wait for the wall to break down with age..
Some find alternatives, like...hit it with a hammer or just kicks it.
Some use ideas..
But the worse kind of people, they went back down the stairs and give up their dreams...

Which one are you?
what is yor desicion?
Think and pray to Allah for guidance..

Never give up.

Pengislahan diri.

Bismillahirrahmanirahim..

Assalamualaikum and hello

Pernah tak korang terfikir nak berubah? Pengislahan diri?
Kalau pernah... alhamdulillah..
Aku pown ada juga lah ingin berubah.. ku fikir senang.

jauhi yang dilarang
Buang lagu2 tak bermanfaat
Jaga pandangan mata dari membaca atau melihat gambar2 yang tak bermanfaat..
Tukar attitude
tinggalkan gaya hidup yang bebas pergaulannya..
tukar penampilan...

Hakikatnya, wahai rakan2 seperjuangan ku..
Itu semua memerlukan kudrat yang sangat sangat sangatlah BESAR!!
tak terkira berapa kali aku telah jatuh semula ke lembah kejahilan..
Entah berapa kali aku bangkit semula fikir ingin berubah tapi tetap kalah dengan nafsu dan godaan syaitan..
Aku takut.. Aku masih takut..
Takut nak tinggalkan segala2 yg telah lama melekat dalam diri.. takut aku kehilangan kawan.
Aku takut sangat2...
Dan itulah kesilapan yang telah aku buat.
Iaitu, takut kepada hal duniawi. Nampak sangat hati aku ni, masih jauh dengan Allah...Istighfar lah wahai hati..

Sekarang aku terfikir.. kalau aku tulis semua perjalanan aku untuk mengislahkan diri dalam blog, dan orang membaca nya..
Apakah hukum nya? Apakah ini menandakan aku riak? aku ingin dipuji? Harap tak lah.. Saya hanya ingin berkongsi bersama2 rakan2 diluar sana yang ingin berubah juga..

Satu perkara yang saya belajar dari kegagalan yang lalu,
Setiap orang cara berubah nya berlainan..
Kita semua mempuanyai background yang sangat lah berbeza...
Maka wajarlah kita terima nasihat orang tetapi kita harus juga sesuaikan ilmu yang kita ada tu dengan kehidupan kita..
Mana tahu, cara orang lain itu kekadang tak boleh masuk dengan hidup kita, surrounding kita..

Mana tahuu....

nothing

Tonight, I can't sleep...
I wonder why?

No particular topic to talk about tonight a.k.a early morning now since it's almost 4 am.. and my mom will wake up in an hour to prepare for sahur.

hey guys,
since it's ramadhan now, how's your Fasting?? InsyaAllah boleh punya lah.. Ingat kalau nak puasa tu jangan puasa sesaje tau.. puasa biar betul2. Macam mana tu puasa betul? haaa korang search lah sendiri yer.. You can search them in Youtube, through books or better more... find someone Alim, someone who you practices Islam fully in their life.

Malam ni my English is abit loony, so, sorry for my broken English. Kejap melayu kejap English.. kalau pakai English ayat terabur. haaa lantak korang lah.. If you don't understand any of my posts in Malay.. please do ask. Please, no shyness is allowed!! XP

Speaking of shyness... I am also a very shy person. Well... at first.
After a few months together, I can be a very Idiotic person you'll ever met. Okay now I'm talking nonsense...

I'm sleepy now. sooo Good bye guys. Selamat bersahur kepada yang Islam!!!

~Cherish your life~

Random??

Assalamualaikum.

I never thought that business is very wide.
All these years I've always targeted myself to study for engineering and I even narrowed my mind without I'm realising it. I always condemned people that they were narrow minded and slow in development, but it turns out that I am one.


Sometimes, it is true...there's a saying, what you see in others, is what in you..

Maybe? I saw that girl is stupid and a very selfish kid and I want to avoid being friends with her. It turns out that I too, a selfish girl and I wondered why people are avoiding. (this is just an example)

Let alone of how people sees in you. You think you are good enough? Well there are always other people who are more better than you.
In my religion, we've been tought to see upon the people lower than you for you to feel grateful of what you have. No. Don't take this wrong.. What I meant by 'see upon the people lower than you' is by be friends with them. Respect them as how you want people to respect you.

Aku ni pown, bukan lah seorang yang perfect and aku realize ada org lebih tak perfect dari aku. Korang pown ada rasa macam tu jugak tak? kalau ada, baguslah... Sifat rendah diri mmg bagus tuk ada dalam diri. Rendah diri kerana Allah. Tapi jangan lah rendah kan sangat diri tu smpai sanggup binasa kan diri sendiri.

HEy guys?
I think I've really gone off hte topic. Actually there aren't any real topic for this post anyway. That's why I started from one topic to another totally different topic, but I guess there are some connection. Right??

Anyway guys,
Today's lesson that I have is to be happy with yourself and be yourself!! Be confident with yourself, for you are who you are and you know what you're capable of.. :)

Good night and Happy Ramadhan!! :)

to be written

Bismillahirrahmaninrahim...

Aku terasa seperti ingin membuat satu lagi blog. yang smorang tak tahu lagi tentang blog itu. dan aku fikir... aku nak letak segala kisah hidup aku dalam tu. I don't care what happens any more.. kind of like a journal...

Starting a new life...InsyaALlah..

Lies..

I remember when I first entered JMTi. If you read any previous post I've mentioned about this place. Anyway, as a newbie in the area, we have to be apart of the hostel activity to get to know better with the seniors. I still remember they call a roll call at almost midnight after a tiring day. I'm not sure why but in that particular roll call, they always advice us not to trust the boys in JMTi. Back then, I agree with them. I even met with a guy (senior)! I thought he was not the kind of 'guy' my seniors talking about. Well who does! He's a member of the Binnadwah ( an islamic society held, every place have one ), so people respect them for that. I trust him for that.

He pours sweet words and all, but back then, I don't even liked him. More to words. I don't even look at him just because I have a crush on somebody else.

Unfortunately, I did fell to his traps of ugly sweetness. I thought, WHY? Why did I accept him? Is it because my crush has a crush on my best friend? My heart broke and I need someone to repair it for me? I see... I think that's the case.

I never thought after countless of times I tried to separate myself with this 'senior', i've fallen in love with his Dakwah. but i was blind. I forgot why I won't accept him back then. I was confused and it's a relief I asked help from a senior (girl). I asked her opinion. Then she asked me something that reminds me of who he was(?). My senior (girl), she told a story about this guy. I got scared. Is this why he silents himself just like the way he did in the story? Is this for real?

I hate to be lied to. It hurts. Painfully and slowly killing me in the inside. How can they give false hope to those who are hoping? You're so cruel.

My mistake to even trust you. I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at myself for not learning from my mistakes. I'm too dumb to see that coming. It's hard. I've been lied and back stabbed by my own closest friends back then and even by someone who are very very very close to me. I've lost my confidence to trust anybody and I wrote it in here to let you guys know. If any of you ever got hurt by my harsh words or you got hurt by me not sharing anything with you, please accept my apology. I just got traumatized. Since JMTi, I tried to be open a bit...but it all ends badly. Always the same...

There are few people that I trust, and I know that person's heart... I just hope they won't let me down. I also will try to keep our relationship together if possible, FOREVER (I'm not a psychopath, don't worry).

Every person has their dark story and we as a person, wants to hide it from people as far from people as we could. We won't know other people's story unless they're willing to tell you, and if they did, you might not understand their feelings. So, we can't judge someone for their attitude and wrongdoings. Forgot about them. Let's think about ourselves. If you can't be a better person, how can anybody be a better person? Be a leader, and invite your follower.

I take trust very seriously, because breaking trust can break hearts more devastatingly.

~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

P.S. It's quite a relief I write it down here and open up a bit. I just step out of my comfort zone because letting people know bits 'bout me. (very sensitive about feelings and relationships).

Sahabat

Uhibukafillah.
Aku cinta kau kerana Allah.

Sebuah cerpen yang ditulis oleh Hilal Asyraf dalam koleksi cerpen terbarunya yang berjudul "Simfoni Cinta".
Air mata hampir berguguran tika ku baca disaat mana dua karakter dalam cerpen itu punyai masalah salah seorangnya dan seorang lagi sanggup gadaikan wang ringgit yang beribu demi sahabat dia.

Ya Allah. Indahnya persahabatan mereka.
Aku terfikir...Mereka adalah sahabat dari sekolah menengah, malah mereka juga tidak sebaya. Namun persahabatan mereka yang dibina atas nama Allah dan berdasarkan konsep Islam yang telah merapatkan lagi hubungan mereka.
Andai kata. Sahabat aku yang dua orang itu, aku masih ragu2 dengan persahabatan mereka terhadapku...Bolehkah ianya dipanggil sebagai persahabatan?
Apa itu erti sebenar persahabatan? Adakah aku perlu jadi sahabat yang baik jika aku mahukan seorang sahabat yang baik juga? Sedangkan aku sendiri tidak tahu bagaimana seorang sahabat yang baik itu...

Seorang senior aku, dia telah hantar satu post didalam Instagram. Menurut post itu, dia kata ramai yang menuduh bahawa ahli usrah dan para soleh dan solehah berlagak konon katakan "Aku sayang kau kerana Allah". Yang ramai itu menuduh ahli2 ini hidup dalam angan-angan dan fantasi yang direka-reka sendiri bagi mengelak dari kesusahan dunia yang tegar ini. Namun, senior aku melawan semula dengan mengatakan dia setuju dengan tuduhan mereka. Dia juga kata, dia memang hidup dalam fantasi yang direka semata-mata, malah dunia ini juga sebenarnya adalah fantasi juga. Realiti kita adalah Akhirat kelak. Dimana segala-galanya adalah benar dan disitulah dimana segala rahsia akan terbongkar termasuklah tipuan dunia. Dunia itu hanya lah hidupan sebentar dan fantasi sahaja.

Aku agak sentap tika membaca perkara itu. Ya. Aku setuju dengan pendirian dia. Bersahabat biarlah kerana Allah. Barulah kita akan tahu yang mana realiti dan yang mana fantasi. Bila kita bersahabat kerana Allah, sahabat kita akan sentiasa ingatkan kesilapan kita tanpa ragu dan dia akan sentiasa tarik kita ke jalan Allah. Mana tahu, dengan itu kita akan juga terselamat dari tipuan dunia dan syaitan yang tak lekang menghasut kita.

Namun, untuk mencari persahabatan sebegini...ia agak susah. Aku pun masih tercari-cari. Semoga kita dapat ketemu dengan persahabatan yang berlandaskan Islam pada suatu hari nanti. Putus asa is not an option. Dengan usaha gigih, suatu hari nanti, kita bakal temuinya.

Chaiyook!!

~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

A Comic. :)

HEllooo guys!!! and Assalamualaikum. :)

I've just finished reading this cute comic and I think I want to share it with you guys and girls. :)

That's the volume for the first three that I've read. Actually this comic does not belong to me. It belongs to my sister. We kinda like to collect comics and somehow I thought this comic is boring so I didn't buy it. Just reading it to fill up some free time and my first impression was like WUEEEKK!! It got something to do with Korean pop stars. This comic is what they call as "Fan's Fictions". Soooo.... the insides is not true. FICTION!!! Take note about that.

As I was reading with full of Yukkiness (I'm not a fan of Korean pop stars), the storyline caught my eye. IT's interesting. The mysteries, the naiveness, the evil and plotting of an evil plan. Somehow, the comic artist is very good in plotting a twisting story.

Here, I'm gonna say, yes I'm gonna say it.. I recommend you guys to read this comic. I don't know about world selling about this comic, but I'm writing this entry is to focus more to Malaysian readers. :)

Another volume is out. Volume 4. My sister said she wants to buy it and I'm gonna wait till she buys it. hehehe~~

This is the pic of the 4th volume.


Thank you for reading.
~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

A locket

Assalamualaikum and Hello guys,
For today...

I have many 'wants' in this world. Kinda materialistic aren't I? There's this one thing that I've been searching the since I was a little kid, and I can't seem to find one that are up to my likings. I'm pretty dissapointed when I found some and it may be too heavy, or too big or it's design are not my taste.

Do you want to know what I'm talking about here? Well....

It kinda looks like this. If it's antique the better. When I was a kid, I always read books that (old books by old writers) like Enid Blyton. Sometimes in this book they mention about lockets and as I search what is a locket...I fell in love for the first time (material-wise). Some people do not understand why I want a locket for? It just a simple looking and can open like a window where you can put pictures in it. "you can get it anywhere," they said. I don't want the just-can-get-anywhere locket. I want the ONE. The special one and to me, the special one is an antique one. Seems old and second handed, but it's not always to have a jewelry that is old. It must have a history to it and people doesn't want it anymore. so I'm dreaming like, I want to continue the locket's journey. :) Then pass it down to my next generation. Sounds fairy tail like but who cares. It's impossible for someone like me to get a fairy tail like love story ( like some of my friends does ), so why not I'm creating one for myself? Who knows a miracle can come along with this quest I'm taking.

How about you guys? What things that you want most? What is your dream? What is your fairy tail?

Mind to share?

Thank you for reading.
~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

Friends?

Hello and Assalamualaikum.

I always got worried about the how people thinks of me, but now... I just don't know. Here's a story about my little sister. She's in the 'difficult' age ( you know what I mean ) now. Easy said, in Malaysia, she's in Form 3 ( 15 years old ) and in this time of age is when I, too having problems with my friends. You see, at this age, we start to get more reserve and starts to find new gangs. We tend to think that our old friends are so outdated with us and think they're just not in to us anymore. They're not in the same frequency as us anymore.

Okay, back to my sis story... She's having probs with her friends that sometimes their relationships are not so good nowadays. Their age is when the word 'CRUSH' always comes into mind and 'LOVE' can break any friendship no matter how close they are before. I know this because I've been there. My sis here, her group of friends consist of 4 girls ( As far as I know ) and one of them have a crush towards a boy. This particular friend is very close to my sis, but my sis is not the type to even bother about crushes or boys at all. So this friend ( labelled as A ), goes to another friend ( which I label as B and she's still in the same group ) to gossips and do what an admirer do best and A left my sis. So my sis, who was left alone, she ends up to be with her other friend ( still in the same group which I label as C ). When A realizes that her feelings towards her crush has gone, she went back to my sis and finds that my sis always hangs out with C. 'A' got mad ( which I don't understand what's the reason is ) at my sis, and (according to what my sis says) A criticises my sis in Twitter. They got in a Tweet fight, but as friends always do, they make up fast. My sis are not satisfied though. She said, she back down in the sake of keeping her anger. Yeah well... on my opinion, obviously it is A's fault. Why would she leave my sis in the first place just for the sake of a boy who she has a crush on? Can you imagine how my sis felt? Which would you prefer? To wait for A like a faithful puppy towards it's master and wait eventhough you're damn lonely; OR go find your other friend ( in the same group ) and hangs out with her for a while? It's not a prob if you hangs out with another friend which is still in the same group. Well what's the point of calling it a group?! You're friends in whole for crying out loud!!!

Okay now, here's a bit of advice base from my experience. If you're in a group of friends with more than two people in it, it is crucial for you to be considerate with your friends' feelings. Don't ignore the others if you want to stick to only one just for a stupid reason. You're just labelling yourself as a selfish person! And we do NOT want that.

Saya teringat, kalau kita kawan bertiga, jangan tinggalkan yang seorang tu sendirian, takut dia tersinggung hati. Ini baru bertiga. Which is hard untuk berlaku adil, but not impossible. It's true because I once start with a group of 5 and finally ends up with a group of 3. Believe it or not, ahlinya pula adalah orang yang berbeza. Well, things happens and I'm grateful for my new group. Ahlinya, sorang ni kawan lama yg dulu pown pernah gaduh skejap ( kawan dari sebelum tadika ) and the other one is a new friend that came along with my childhood friend.

Even in Matriculation, my groups are still in contact, yet I made a new group ( new place always have new friends ). It is a group of three too. I don't know why it has to be three people. Fate maybe?


I think this is enough. It's a long entry and I know it's boring... I hope you guys gets my message. (I'm not a really good writer and I words are always confusing ) Yet, if you have any questions, please do ask without hesitation.
Thank you for reading.

~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

Just A CAmp

Assalamualaikum.. :)
This is a story about a camp I went from last friday to sunday.
Kem ni berlaku di Kem Biro Tatanegara Lipis, Kuala Lipis. And honestly, it's the best camp I've ever been to. It's not about the activities that matters to me.. it's the friends that I gain from there. I learn about true friends. I learn about trust with new friends. It only took us almost 3 days for us to be friends and our friendship will continue on.

Ini kali pertama aku pergi kem yang aku bergaul dengan pelbagai umur. from 16 and above. Boys and Girls,there's not even a single awkwardness between us. Okay, yes there is once. I'm kinda like a new kid there and some of the knew each other (partly from previous camp together). How i got to join this camp? Well, my friend asked me, and another boy came with us. His name is Aniq.

Anyway back to this camp. Overall, there's about 52/53 participants. I don't know really how many of us all. We then divided to 6 groups and I have 9 people in my group. It's 10 if includes with my urusetia of my group. We went through the jungle at night with only one torchlight to guide our way. We fell and tripped and hurt our skin together scrambling in the dark searching for the signs that shows the way. Some teams used more than one torchlight and it's totally unfair for us. After hurdling in the darkness around 3 hours later, we found the end of our tracks and suddenly, one of my team mates went histeric. We have to handle her from 2.30 am all the way till Subuh came.

We left her with someone in charge for prayer. After that we continue on with our journey. They give us a living chicken to take care of as we went for jungle tracking again but this time it's under the sunlight. With the chicken, we swim across the lake and we climb the hills through the jungle and finally, we have to cook the chicken.

Cooking in this camp is very challenging. We are not allowed to make any communication with anyone. No hand signals, no eye contact and of course, no SPEAKING. It's very challenging really! If I were to tell you about this part of the story, it will be a totally long story to tell.

After cooking, we ate them and we have this one activity. We will climb a 60 foot tower and climb down using ropes. I am afraid of heights and I can tell you it is a very high tower. As I got up there, the coach roughly pushed me to the side of the tower and forced me to asked for permission to climb down. As I do as he said, I still clung to the ropes and won't let go. Then the coach pushed my feet of the platform and I fell down, but somehow I could climb down as real as a professional does. I was like wow!! Such a waste of energy for me to struggle with my emotions.

The best adventure ends. In the night, we played games and gains more marks. Somehow my team's marks are the lowest so we fight during the games and got up to third place. We got excited!! :)
Long story after that...

The next day is our last day. It's saddening for us to go to our separate ways... The best part on that day was when they're announcing the best team ever. The team they called as JUARA ( Champion ). And that team is my team! At first we called out the 6th team because their points are the highest but eventually my team's number went up. We were like, "HUH?!!". Honestly, our team were the worst (we thought so). It is very surprising... till the time comes for us to say good bye.

Some of us ride the van and some went for the bus. Some ride their own car. The one who went by car and van we stopped by a place where there's a Pasar Malam Larut Malam are held. In there, there's a karaoke stage and it starts with my friend who wants to sing. We sang together and dance together in public. It was soo much fun.. :)

We then pray for Maghrib at the nearby Masjid, and continue our journey to find a place for dinner. After dinner we start again to go back home...That is the end of my story here.

Thank you for reading~
Assalamualaikum...
~Cherish your life~
A.Q.

Finally.

Bismillahirrahman rahim...

Assalamualaikum to everybody..

It has been a logn time since I've set my eyes on my blog and I kinda miss it too...

As I look upon my visitor status.. i was like hmmm, Okay. I understand since I haven't updated it yet.
Just so people to know, I have finished my studies in Matriculation. I was soooo happy!!!! Just yesterday I finished my last paper, that is physics, and today I went outing with my friends to a book fair in Kuala Lumpur. :) It is tiresome but every second worth it. i really miss them a lot!! Honestly. I can't say how much I miss them. My two best buddies. they always there for me and I hope they wouldn't left me behind.

This will be my first entry for after such a long time, and I'll post more, if you guys don't mind ( I don't mind to know whether you mind at all!). Tomorrow I will be going back to the book fair venue where I'll meet some of my ex-school mates and I have camp on Friday till Sunday! Some of my friends asked me, " Aren't you tired??". Well, NO. I do feel tired as a human being but some things just worth sacrifices for. I got the chance to meet up with my friends and I just have to grab it! I don't know the future...

To my matrics friends (those who read this), I hope you guys well and be safe. Plus, please don't waste your time at home by doing nothing and 'ternak lemak' as I call it hehe... Anyway, even if your parents wouldn't let you guys work, just go and find something useful to do. Like making your own projects. This is the time you can be free of doing anything! As for me, I know this is my first time to ever experience a looong holiday ( 4 months ) since SPM because I further my studies right after SPM...and i just don't know what to do now. After this camp, I help my parents with their work and maybe I'll go learn how to drive and maybe take a job. At least I can save some money for future needs...

That is it for today. Have to pack up for camp. So long guys!

Assalamualaikum. :)
Thank you for reading,
~Cherish your life~
Jaga Diri, jaga Iman...

Manja

Assalamualaikum and hello to everybody.

Okay now I'm pissed.
Aku tak heran lah kalau orang nak kata aku manja but please jangan libat kan parents aku. It's not like they were to be blamed to pamper me.Asal aku kata aku nak minta izin parents aku, sumer kata aku anak manja. It's not like I's depending on them for everything, and I ONLY asked them for permission when it only concerns with money. I can make my own decision too, OKAY!

Come to think of it, why would I be mad about this to those who accused me of something this silly. Some of you might think I was just saying this to protect myself by denying and give reasons. Well FYI, I'm not. I'm just stating the truth. And this truth are not only for me but for those who have been in the same situation as I am.

When you see a person walking by with their parents and always calls them, it's not that they are spoilt. We don't know their background so don't judge... It's wrong for us to judge them. Like when you said, " DOn't judge me, you don't know me". Well, you don't like people to judge you then why do you judge people? It's the same for them to feel what you feel. We ARE HUMANS TOO!!!

Try to think for a while. You only get your chance to be with parents from birth till you graduate from highschool. That if you didn't go to any boarding school. Imagine you have a child, you send your child for boarding school. DIdn't you miss your child? If you don't...I don't know what else to say. Okay, then your child comes home for the holiday. You want to spend time with your child but your child doesn't want to. Don't you feel heartbroken? Your child is in the age of feeling embarrassed when they're with their parents. They think that by being with their parents they shows to the world that they are not dependaple. They can't stand alone and can't make their own decision. YOU yourself might have this similar feelings when you're younger don't you? I don't want my child to act this way towards me so I try my best to avoid acting this way towards my parents. Haven't you heard about Karma? Even in Islam, what we do, we will get it back. If not in the world , then the Akhirat is there for you. PLus, to those muslims (I'm not sure about other religions but I think what I'm about to say probably have something to do with yor religions too), you know well that if you hurt your parents feelings it gives you Dosa right? Kau pun leh dikira sebagai anak derhaka tau. DOn't play play dengan hukum ALLAH ye. Skali kamu luka kan hati parents, derhaka lah kamu selagi kamu tidak meminta maaf kepada mereka. Sesungguh ibu bapa kita lembut hati terhadap anak mereka walau macam mana pown nakal anak mereka [ this depedns on situations and family backgrounds too, every family have different stories and comes with different lifestyle ].

So the conclusion is, not to judge someone by saying they're spoilt just because they asked their parents for permission or they always stick with their parents. You don't know what life they're having. Maybe they stay far and they only come home once per year. So they want to be with their parents whenever they have the chance. YOur parents does not live forever, okay? They die too. So cherish them while you still can. Push away your ego for their sake. Don't hurt them. They didn't raise you for you to abandon them, they didn't ask for your money, they didn't ask for anything. They just willing to take what you give. Even though it was just a piece of candy. They love you for who you are and why CAN't we LOVE them back as they LOVE us?? WHY??!

Ask yourself that and think for your own answer.

Here's another story for girls precisely, before we marry, we live with our parents right? But after we married, we have to leave their side and stay with your husband, right? Here's a thought...when you were not married, you didn't spend your time with your parents, but after you're married, you have to spend most of your time with your husband and children (if you have some) and you're gonna miss your parents, don't you? What if, your husband take you to live in a far away land from your parents ( overseas maybe? ). You got less and less time to spend with your parents. They'll miss you for sure, but they can't do anything about that. It's not your huband's fault that you didn't get to spend time with your parents anymore. iT's yours. I don't want to have any regrets after marriage. So I spend as much time with my parents even though I'm mad at them, I just endure it for awhile. 1 reason probably because I'm staying in a hostel and lives far away from my parents. But when I got back for holidays, I listened to them and make our bonds tighter. I love them. So it's no reason for me to be ashamed of it. They're my parents. NO ONE CAN REPLACE THEM. NOT EVEN MY HUSBAND. They're the jewel of my life. :)


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Thank you for reading such a long text. And the one I wrote in malay it's because I'm mad and can't think of any English at that time. I'm glad I get the chance to express my feelings here.

With love...
A.Q.
-Cherish your life-

Room cleaning!!

UUURGHHH .. oh assalamualaikum and Hello guys.


Today, for the second day of my holiday, I was cleaning my room. Just rearranging the furniture and books.
Have to rest for a while and don't know what to do so I guess I would like to blog for a while.

Hey remember my last post? Well, a classmate asked me about my blog and he asked me about the book that I've put on the last post. He asked me if he can borrow that book. I was like, wooowww... ~~O.o~~
Never have in my life, a BOY asking to borrow a book. Okay, there are several other boys who does but I didn't expect it to be him. HAHAHA Cruel of me to think of that. :P

Anyway I gave it to him, I didn't mind really if people want to borrow my books, but they have to undergoes an interview by me and me alone can give the permission. That book has a flexible backbone So I didn't do the interview him, no worries. But as usual, I do give him  the warning. "If you ever hurt that book, you will have to buy a new one!". I'm not serious really, to let him buy me a new one. Who would anyway? If he ever DID hurt my beloved book, I know that I would just let it pass. The past is past right? Let bygone be bygone.

Okay, now I am soooo out of topic. back to my room story. I just got back from my hostel and I found that the arrangement of my room just gets into my nerves. It looks like there's not even any room for me to walk!! I can't even see the floor clearly!! What with my sister's books and mine was all over the place. hehe~

I can't rest actually, but I'm too tired to go for the second phase of the cleaning. What's that? Well, for me the second phase of the cleaning was after I've rearranged my books at the bookshelf I will have to mop the floor all over again and sweep them again. or even vacuum them. To tell you the truth.. I really hate vacuumming... The noise!!! There's still a lot more to do here actually... I have to clear up the floor, the mess I've made, the rubbish etc etc.....~.~

I can't wait to clear up my bed and change the cover, and then FLY!!~~~ hehehe I mean, fly to the dream world. Enjoy the new view of my room or read my beloved books in peace. :)

Or maybee,,,, WATCH FAIRY TAIL!!! n_n

Okay now to report about my current reading.
I'm currently reading this book



Since I've finished taking the mid semester exam, I can read this book as relax as I can be. no worries since I'm still at home. hehehe~ Ok, have to get back to work.

Sincerely,
A.Q.
~Cherish your Life~


P.S : I think I need a glass of cold water before I resume my work. :P

Bloggiong.. hehe

hello again.

Wow, I wonder why my posts are in English?
Maybe I was inspired by  friends? They all wrote in English. Don't bother to search for their blog from my following list, I don't follow them. I just save their link. hehe~

I just blog walking a while ago and opened my friend's blog. I noticed there's a slight diff there. Her posts are all in English!! Like wow.. She's just like me, from Malay blog to English. A change of the wind maybe?

oh I forgot to tell you guys that I've finished reading the series of the Strange Angel.




There you go, the whole bunch. Currently I'm reading The Hunger Games, book one. I've seen the movie and it's not common for me to watch the movie first then reading the book, but there's been a problem happened back then. Oh and yes, I'm a big fan of Hunger Games! I've watched them countless of times, over and over again. They never bores me. I wonder why?

Okay, I have to practice for my sketsa for Maulidur rasul. I'll tell about that later. If I ever remembers.. *rolling eyes... Toodles guys!

Assalamualaikum .:)

~Remember to Cherish you Life Okay?~

Camping

Assalamualaikum and hello guys. this entry will be short and simple. ( I guess )

First of all...CAMPING!!!! I love camping and the best is when we're going for jungle tracking. As much as I love this activity, I have 1 problem. I HATE BUGS. It is a very crucial thing to consider because when you're in the jungle, bugs is the most likely living thing that you will always encounter. SPiders, Ants, ANTS ANTS!!!  I don't mind much of flies, mosquito and spiders, except that they're annoying. ANTS, is the only insect I despise most and the jungle are their homeland, their paradise.

Anyway, this Feb, I'll be going for a camp at Janda Baik Pahang. I'm not sure what's the name of the campsite... I'm pretty worried about the activities that are going to be held especially when this camp is organized by my own MENTOR. He'll really prank me hardcore! Since he knows bits of my secrets, I'm doomed.

Lately I've been watching this superb anime! Fairy Tail, I know some of you might recognize the title, if don't...well never mind.  Anyway, in one of the episodes, I've got something that can help me overcome my fear. Is by being in more fear and change that into my inner strength. It's hard to explain, but you have to figure it out yourself. I've tried it before, to overcome my fear of heights. My knees still shake whenever I stand at the railing of a high place, but I've overcome it. Before, I can't even stand near any railings, even when I know how high it was...but now, I can happily look down. It's fun! And scary at the same time, but overall , the thrill is there. I'm afraid, but I've set my mind to block down that fear. If not, I will miss a lot of fun things about this world. :)

To those who has fears and want to overcome it, always think positive and remember, if you're too scared, then you'll miss so many fun things in this world. Such a waste of life.

CAMPING HERE I COME!! XD~~~
INSECT OR NOT, I DON'T CARE AND I'M STILL GOING. :) 

Another new year

Assalamualaikum.

Hello guys.. it's been quite sometime since I wrote here.. I've been busy nowadays. What's more due to the heaps of homework. Can't seem to get it done on time. My time management has gone haywire!!

anyway... Even though it's new year, as usual, I don't celebrate much. What's there to celebrate? It's just a waste of time. A new year for a muslim is not on the 1 jan, but on the 1st Muharram. That's where I really do celebrate.. Mostly just by reciting Yassin and perform a new year 's prayer.

On this day, 1 january, my friend was born. SOooo, she's 19 now and I'm still 18.. she's the oldest of us, but i feel like I'm her older sister. maybe because of our height hehe.

I'm still in matriculation, can't say if that's a dissapointment or not. Exams are coming, and I've been a potato couch since the middle of Disember.. Seriously I need to change.

This year, I'll try to turn over a new leaf. It has been too long for me being in the comfort zone. If I need to be successful, I really do need to lift my fat ass of the couch~
Oh and I want to start exercising more. Fats are getting all over my body,  I feel like a punching bag stuffed with cake or something squishy. So disgusting.

Guys, everyone has a new year wish, but do we achieve our wishes? Make a plan. Follow them and InsyaAllah you can get your wish.

Got to go now... The mosquitoes are envying me right now.. they kept biting and sucking my blood.. very annoying!!! >.<

Bai and assalamualaikum
~cherish your life~
A.Q.