Finally.

Bismillahirrahman rahim...

Assalamualaikum to everybody..

It has been a logn time since I've set my eyes on my blog and I kinda miss it too...

As I look upon my visitor status.. i was like hmmm, Okay. I understand since I haven't updated it yet.
Just so people to know, I have finished my studies in Matriculation. I was soooo happy!!!! Just yesterday I finished my last paper, that is physics, and today I went outing with my friends to a book fair in Kuala Lumpur. :) It is tiresome but every second worth it. i really miss them a lot!! Honestly. I can't say how much I miss them. My two best buddies. they always there for me and I hope they wouldn't left me behind.

This will be my first entry for after such a long time, and I'll post more, if you guys don't mind ( I don't mind to know whether you mind at all!). Tomorrow I will be going back to the book fair venue where I'll meet some of my ex-school mates and I have camp on Friday till Sunday! Some of my friends asked me, " Aren't you tired??". Well, NO. I do feel tired as a human being but some things just worth sacrifices for. I got the chance to meet up with my friends and I just have to grab it! I don't know the future...

To my matrics friends (those who read this), I hope you guys well and be safe. Plus, please don't waste your time at home by doing nothing and 'ternak lemak' as I call it hehe... Anyway, even if your parents wouldn't let you guys work, just go and find something useful to do. Like making your own projects. This is the time you can be free of doing anything! As for me, I know this is my first time to ever experience a looong holiday ( 4 months ) since SPM because I further my studies right after SPM...and i just don't know what to do now. After this camp, I help my parents with their work and maybe I'll go learn how to drive and maybe take a job. At least I can save some money for future needs...

That is it for today. Have to pack up for camp. So long guys!

Assalamualaikum. :)
Thank you for reading,
~Cherish your life~
Jaga Diri, jaga Iman...

Manja

Assalamualaikum and hello to everybody.

Okay now I'm pissed.
Aku tak heran lah kalau orang nak kata aku manja but please jangan libat kan parents aku. It's not like they were to be blamed to pamper me.Asal aku kata aku nak minta izin parents aku, sumer kata aku anak manja. It's not like I's depending on them for everything, and I ONLY asked them for permission when it only concerns with money. I can make my own decision too, OKAY!

Come to think of it, why would I be mad about this to those who accused me of something this silly. Some of you might think I was just saying this to protect myself by denying and give reasons. Well FYI, I'm not. I'm just stating the truth. And this truth are not only for me but for those who have been in the same situation as I am.

When you see a person walking by with their parents and always calls them, it's not that they are spoilt. We don't know their background so don't judge... It's wrong for us to judge them. Like when you said, " DOn't judge me, you don't know me". Well, you don't like people to judge you then why do you judge people? It's the same for them to feel what you feel. We ARE HUMANS TOO!!!

Try to think for a while. You only get your chance to be with parents from birth till you graduate from highschool. That if you didn't go to any boarding school. Imagine you have a child, you send your child for boarding school. DIdn't you miss your child? If you don't...I don't know what else to say. Okay, then your child comes home for the holiday. You want to spend time with your child but your child doesn't want to. Don't you feel heartbroken? Your child is in the age of feeling embarrassed when they're with their parents. They think that by being with their parents they shows to the world that they are not dependaple. They can't stand alone and can't make their own decision. YOU yourself might have this similar feelings when you're younger don't you? I don't want my child to act this way towards me so I try my best to avoid acting this way towards my parents. Haven't you heard about Karma? Even in Islam, what we do, we will get it back. If not in the world , then the Akhirat is there for you. PLus, to those muslims (I'm not sure about other religions but I think what I'm about to say probably have something to do with yor religions too), you know well that if you hurt your parents feelings it gives you Dosa right? Kau pun leh dikira sebagai anak derhaka tau. DOn't play play dengan hukum ALLAH ye. Skali kamu luka kan hati parents, derhaka lah kamu selagi kamu tidak meminta maaf kepada mereka. Sesungguh ibu bapa kita lembut hati terhadap anak mereka walau macam mana pown nakal anak mereka [ this depedns on situations and family backgrounds too, every family have different stories and comes with different lifestyle ].

So the conclusion is, not to judge someone by saying they're spoilt just because they asked their parents for permission or they always stick with their parents. You don't know what life they're having. Maybe they stay far and they only come home once per year. So they want to be with their parents whenever they have the chance. YOur parents does not live forever, okay? They die too. So cherish them while you still can. Push away your ego for their sake. Don't hurt them. They didn't raise you for you to abandon them, they didn't ask for your money, they didn't ask for anything. They just willing to take what you give. Even though it was just a piece of candy. They love you for who you are and why CAN't we LOVE them back as they LOVE us?? WHY??!

Ask yourself that and think for your own answer.

Here's another story for girls precisely, before we marry, we live with our parents right? But after we married, we have to leave their side and stay with your husband, right? Here's a thought...when you were not married, you didn't spend your time with your parents, but after you're married, you have to spend most of your time with your husband and children (if you have some) and you're gonna miss your parents, don't you? What if, your husband take you to live in a far away land from your parents ( overseas maybe? ). You got less and less time to spend with your parents. They'll miss you for sure, but they can't do anything about that. It's not your huband's fault that you didn't get to spend time with your parents anymore. iT's yours. I don't want to have any regrets after marriage. So I spend as much time with my parents even though I'm mad at them, I just endure it for awhile. 1 reason probably because I'm staying in a hostel and lives far away from my parents. But when I got back for holidays, I listened to them and make our bonds tighter. I love them. So it's no reason for me to be ashamed of it. They're my parents. NO ONE CAN REPLACE THEM. NOT EVEN MY HUSBAND. They're the jewel of my life. :)


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Thank you for reading such a long text. And the one I wrote in malay it's because I'm mad and can't think of any English at that time. I'm glad I get the chance to express my feelings here.

With love...
A.Q.
-Cherish your life-

Room cleaning!!

UUURGHHH .. oh assalamualaikum and Hello guys.


Today, for the second day of my holiday, I was cleaning my room. Just rearranging the furniture and books.
Have to rest for a while and don't know what to do so I guess I would like to blog for a while.

Hey remember my last post? Well, a classmate asked me about my blog and he asked me about the book that I've put on the last post. He asked me if he can borrow that book. I was like, wooowww... ~~O.o~~
Never have in my life, a BOY asking to borrow a book. Okay, there are several other boys who does but I didn't expect it to be him. HAHAHA Cruel of me to think of that. :P

Anyway I gave it to him, I didn't mind really if people want to borrow my books, but they have to undergoes an interview by me and me alone can give the permission. That book has a flexible backbone So I didn't do the interview him, no worries. But as usual, I do give him  the warning. "If you ever hurt that book, you will have to buy a new one!". I'm not serious really, to let him buy me a new one. Who would anyway? If he ever DID hurt my beloved book, I know that I would just let it pass. The past is past right? Let bygone be bygone.

Okay, now I am soooo out of topic. back to my room story. I just got back from my hostel and I found that the arrangement of my room just gets into my nerves. It looks like there's not even any room for me to walk!! I can't even see the floor clearly!! What with my sister's books and mine was all over the place. hehe~

I can't rest actually, but I'm too tired to go for the second phase of the cleaning. What's that? Well, for me the second phase of the cleaning was after I've rearranged my books at the bookshelf I will have to mop the floor all over again and sweep them again. or even vacuum them. To tell you the truth.. I really hate vacuumming... The noise!!! There's still a lot more to do here actually... I have to clear up the floor, the mess I've made, the rubbish etc etc.....~.~

I can't wait to clear up my bed and change the cover, and then FLY!!~~~ hehehe I mean, fly to the dream world. Enjoy the new view of my room or read my beloved books in peace. :)

Or maybee,,,, WATCH FAIRY TAIL!!! n_n

Okay now to report about my current reading.
I'm currently reading this book



Since I've finished taking the mid semester exam, I can read this book as relax as I can be. no worries since I'm still at home. hehehe~ Ok, have to get back to work.

Sincerely,
A.Q.
~Cherish your Life~


P.S : I think I need a glass of cold water before I resume my work. :P

Bloggiong.. hehe

hello again.

Wow, I wonder why my posts are in English?
Maybe I was inspired by  friends? They all wrote in English. Don't bother to search for their blog from my following list, I don't follow them. I just save their link. hehe~

I just blog walking a while ago and opened my friend's blog. I noticed there's a slight diff there. Her posts are all in English!! Like wow.. She's just like me, from Malay blog to English. A change of the wind maybe?

oh I forgot to tell you guys that I've finished reading the series of the Strange Angel.




There you go, the whole bunch. Currently I'm reading The Hunger Games, book one. I've seen the movie and it's not common for me to watch the movie first then reading the book, but there's been a problem happened back then. Oh and yes, I'm a big fan of Hunger Games! I've watched them countless of times, over and over again. They never bores me. I wonder why?

Okay, I have to practice for my sketsa for Maulidur rasul. I'll tell about that later. If I ever remembers.. *rolling eyes... Toodles guys!

Assalamualaikum .:)

~Remember to Cherish you Life Okay?~

Camping

Assalamualaikum and hello guys. this entry will be short and simple. ( I guess )

First of all...CAMPING!!!! I love camping and the best is when we're going for jungle tracking. As much as I love this activity, I have 1 problem. I HATE BUGS. It is a very crucial thing to consider because when you're in the jungle, bugs is the most likely living thing that you will always encounter. SPiders, Ants, ANTS ANTS!!!  I don't mind much of flies, mosquito and spiders, except that they're annoying. ANTS, is the only insect I despise most and the jungle are their homeland, their paradise.

Anyway, this Feb, I'll be going for a camp at Janda Baik Pahang. I'm not sure what's the name of the campsite... I'm pretty worried about the activities that are going to be held especially when this camp is organized by my own MENTOR. He'll really prank me hardcore! Since he knows bits of my secrets, I'm doomed.

Lately I've been watching this superb anime! Fairy Tail, I know some of you might recognize the title, if don't...well never mind.  Anyway, in one of the episodes, I've got something that can help me overcome my fear. Is by being in more fear and change that into my inner strength. It's hard to explain, but you have to figure it out yourself. I've tried it before, to overcome my fear of heights. My knees still shake whenever I stand at the railing of a high place, but I've overcome it. Before, I can't even stand near any railings, even when I know how high it was...but now, I can happily look down. It's fun! And scary at the same time, but overall , the thrill is there. I'm afraid, but I've set my mind to block down that fear. If not, I will miss a lot of fun things about this world. :)

To those who has fears and want to overcome it, always think positive and remember, if you're too scared, then you'll miss so many fun things in this world. Such a waste of life.

CAMPING HERE I COME!! XD~~~
INSECT OR NOT, I DON'T CARE AND I'M STILL GOING. :) 

Another new year

Assalamualaikum.

Hello guys.. it's been quite sometime since I wrote here.. I've been busy nowadays. What's more due to the heaps of homework. Can't seem to get it done on time. My time management has gone haywire!!

anyway... Even though it's new year, as usual, I don't celebrate much. What's there to celebrate? It's just a waste of time. A new year for a muslim is not on the 1 jan, but on the 1st Muharram. That's where I really do celebrate.. Mostly just by reciting Yassin and perform a new year 's prayer.

On this day, 1 january, my friend was born. SOooo, she's 19 now and I'm still 18.. she's the oldest of us, but i feel like I'm her older sister. maybe because of our height hehe.

I'm still in matriculation, can't say if that's a dissapointment or not. Exams are coming, and I've been a potato couch since the middle of Disember.. Seriously I need to change.

This year, I'll try to turn over a new leaf. It has been too long for me being in the comfort zone. If I need to be successful, I really do need to lift my fat ass of the couch~
Oh and I want to start exercising more. Fats are getting all over my body,  I feel like a punching bag stuffed with cake or something squishy. So disgusting.

Guys, everyone has a new year wish, but do we achieve our wishes? Make a plan. Follow them and InsyaAllah you can get your wish.

Got to go now... The mosquitoes are envying me right now.. they kept biting and sucking my blood.. very annoying!!! >.<

Bai and assalamualaikum
~cherish your life~
A.Q.

Hard decision..

Assalamualaikum...

Friday afternoon till Saturday morning, my college held a Academician Program about universities.
But i just want to highlight a few about this two University that I've targeted...

First is University Malaysia Pahang. UMP offers a course that i've longed to enter. That is Mechatronic. Plus, there's a program in UMP that is Double Degree (DD). The person who gets to enter this program will get two degrees. One's from UMP it self and the other is from a top 5 university from Germany. THIS, is what I targeted. I've longed to go overseas, before this, I didn't know which country I would like to go, since I've let myself with mechatronics I've seen where to go. German is my next target. Unfortunately, as I my spirit soars high, then came Utem.

UTeM stands for University Technical Malaysia. This university is almost the same as with UMP, it came 3rd in my eye. Aftere the lecture from UTeM. I asked him personally, about mechatronics study there. He keeps saying that it is very hard. I see.. I know it is hard, because it is a combination of other engineering fields. It is hard, but nothing is impossible right? He said, if I apply for UTeM under electronics industry for first choice, and if my application did not approved, then I shall call him or text him and he will sign the paper personally. He would help me to enter UTeM under his name. With this I've seen that I can get one lecturer to back me up, if ever I went to UTeM. He also proposed to me about a program there. I can't recall what's the program was called. It was just this, this program that he mentioned will send 30 students (max) to overseas. Pick any U that the person wants and you will get full scholarship to study there for 6 months, a.k.a. for one semester. I asked him, if I wanted to go to german, would there be any classes for me to learn the language? He said no, I have to learn it myself. That's the problem there. Would I let go of my dream to become a mechatronics engineer? He looks down on me. I can feel it.

My senior, he went to UMP to study mechatronics, but not under DD. He said it was tough but still, everything is tough. Nothing's easy. And I've seen that UMP's lecturers are more fun than UTeM. My friends there, they never encouraged me to enter there too, they just gave me a no comment and change the topic. I'm not sure why they do that, but this giving me more doubts.

Now I'm in a dilemma. UMP or UTeM? kena buat solat istikharah lah ni. Come to think of it, if I follow the DD, they will teach us 3 years with the language and in the 4th year, they'll send to German for a year.
That's my target. as long that I did not apply for RU in my application form for the first 4 choices. That would be no problem.

I think that's it for tonight. good night guys

Assalamualaikum.
~Cherish your life~

A smile a day

Assalamualaikum.

Here I'm stating that A smile a day can really make your day.

But maybe only for a second.

Even for that, we have thousands of reasons why we can't smile and only a little reason why we have to smile.
among those thousands why we can't smile, we don't know why. and part of we know why.

We have to smile everyday so that we can lie to ourselves that that day will be a happy day. We often said, that if we start a day with a smile, we can have a happy day. Unfortunately, is it true? Not everyone managed to smile early in the morning. Unless a very happy event happened in their life. That's a possibility right?

I don't mean to say that we can't smile everyday.. I'm just highlighting the truth...or maybe that's what my life is all about. I can really count how many times I had a great time or developed a smile in the morning. and it always ends bad. It always ends with a frown because I tend to be a very grumpy girl.

But all in all, it's always nice to lie to oneself that the  day we wake up, MAY  be a nice day and we hope that it will stay that way for the whole day. "Tomorrow" is another story...so don't fuss up your mind too much.

My advice, lying is good, if the outcome is good. Sometimes a little lie can actually keep yourself sane and it's good for your body. But there are consequences... that will be in another story.

So for today, SMILE everyone!! :)
Here, take one of these, you might need one.

Sincerely,
A.Q.

A little bit of imagination. :)

.Assalamualaikum.

Hey there guys and girls... Probably there's an adult her so hello Ladies and Gentlemen..

have you ever dreamed of walking inside that passage, like that in the picture.
Or you have?
Hmmph, lucky for those who have. I haven't and that's for sure. You can see clearly that, it's snowing in that pic. I love snow and in Malaysia, you have no snow. So I dream someday I will go somewhere during winter. Somewhere that has winter that is. If not probably I could go to some place that has a winter wonderland.

Anyway, my point here is to share with you guys this pic.
Look at that pic and imagine. Anything to your heart desires. Imagination is unlimited... :)

Chiow for now!

Sincerely,
A.Q.

Annyeonghaseyo!! :)

Hello and Assalamualaikum. :)

Boys Over Flowers. 

Quite an old series from korean dramas, but I just got the chance to watch it. :) 

My friend's been talking about this drama years ago and I'm a bit too late to watch it. What ever...

I love how the story goes. even though I haven't finished it yet. :P

This story reminds me, that even though you though you LOVE someone, 

actually, that person is not the one. 

I may sound paranoid, but stories like this is just fantasies. Any drama, that is...

They're just in love at 'that' moment. Wait till they grow up, enter universities, and start to work. 

Will they ever be together again?

It's a one in a million chance that they ever will end with marriage. Just a tiny miny winey chance. The atomic size of chance. 

For the girls who are in a relationship, don't put your hopes too high. Don't lie to yourself,daydreaming about this fantasies with your boyfriends. If you hope too much, it will hurt you. You may rise again, and forgive everything - will you forget it? No. (prbably a yes if u try hard)

Sincerely,

A.Q.